Silent Assassin No More

Silent Assassin.
That was a name given to me by our department chairperson.
Maybe, that's because I don't warn students if they are failing in my subjects so they get so surprised when they get their final grades.
Why?
1.) It's their responsibility to assess their performance in my subject
2.) I don't want to baby students

Or maybe..I love my students so much that I don't want to remind them constantly about their grades because I might pity them and give them 75%.

But last week's presentation really burned my patience. Most projects are low in quality and only have features of add, edit and delete! No print, filtering of information or any feature that can make me say the word "wow".

I was so disappointed.

Time management would have been the solution for any time constraints in students but from what I see now, students from today’s generation are a lot stubborn than our time. They lack the patience to research and ask questions. Their thinking skills are so poor that I easily get annoyed of their questions because it’s very answerable if they only have the drive to research before going to me.

I can’t keep my voice anymore…I have to speak

And so I did.

I posted a message in our college FB group in my aggravation hoping that they’ll realize that they could have worked harder, deeper and wiser. In minutes, students posted comments of loneliness, some are afraid, some are affected, some are silent and some don’t care.

This time, I shouted my voice out.

I have to make them see that what they are doing is wrong.

I might be the bad guy but I don’t care as long as I can give them my point. They have to change! They need to go a higher level! They need to be more!

If not, job would be hard for them to reach even if they graduate from college.

I will not stop failing students if it takes for them to be more mature.

I will not be silent anymore.

What is an outstanding faculty?

Someone who cares to listen to students?

A person capable of expressing the right words of explanation?

An individual with the right academic requirements to teach?

Or maybe a person who just love his/her job?

I do not know if I have the following, but what I know is that I'am destined to do what I do inside of the classroom. It's my joy to create lectures. I take pride of my student's works. I produce students who can pass company standards.

Above all, I teach in my Alma Matter.

Being recognized for what I do is nice. Having an award for 3 years every semester straight is great! I even amaze myself how I was able to do it despite my MIT and COP. Deep inside of me, I know the word "outstanding" is a big shoe to fit in.

I do not know if I really deserve the word "outstanding". I do not know what quality I possess to deserve that word. But maybe, it's my passion in what I do that makes me go beyond "satisfactory" and I thank God for giving the kind of career that I suit best.

It's a new inspiration, a new challenge. For my students, family, my husband and future kids, I know should not stop and be better.

And if there is another level, I'll fight my way for the word "Excellent".